I've been getting caught up in the norms of the blogging world, desiring people's attention and compulsively checking my popularity. Finding satisfaction in the number of likes, followers and comments. Trying to advertise myself and my thoughts. Trying to find some form of blogging success by getting my voice heard.
But I don't want to blog for such purposes. I don't actually really even want to blog. I just want to write my thoughts and allow people to access them. More like a book than a blog. Access for the purpose of stimulating your own thoughts. For you to analyze and to consider. For you to accept or reject as you see fit.
More like a book than a blog. Something you curl up with alone and read without the author sitting there next to you. No discussion between the author and yourself. Just the words on the page and the thoughts in your head. No idea of how many other people are reading the book and what they are thinking about it. Just the words on the page and the thoughts in your head. I want people to read this blog solely because they want to read and think about the content. Read the content and decide what to do with it for yourself.
Examine me. Decide if you can trust me. Or more importantly, decide if you can trust that I have a real relationship with Jesus Christ. That I actually know Him and that He knows me. That He is leading me to Him. That I truly desire to know, love and obey Him. That I don't desire my own correctness but I desire to know the Truth.
